My thoughts feel like paper cuts
I have to keep them in a journal so they can’t catch fire and start to fall
And I miss you even though I won’t say your name
And I miss all the words we never spoke and all the moments we always stole
And every second you’ll never let me borrow from what we use to be
We’ve imprint this on the inside of our skin
And even we can see each others thoughts mold in the dark
We are bound by what made us and we can never leave
Because those nights filled every space in between
So the light can’t peak through our cracks
and now the wood floors crack like all the thoughts you’ve made me think
And remember when we jumped the fence? Splinters in our palms reaching for the roof
The sun burnt our heads we didn’t want to come down
We still won’t come down we’re still sitting on that roof watching the afternoon unravel into the evening
Watching stars and wishing we could pluck them
Pretending we’re so fucking tough that we could touch them but never really trying… to reach
Remember when we stole the car and did cartwheels in the parking lot until the sun came down
We went home dizzy and happy with freckled shoulders and dirty hands
When we were younger we used to disappear
we use to float around the room and no one else could reach
But I lost you in all the new days
Couldn’t separate the sound and feel you out
Couldn’t tell you how much I could use you when the seasons said you were gone
Couldn’t find you in time to tell you how lovely I always thought you were
Tell you how lonely I’d be when I couldn’t watch you stare off into space
and wonder if you were thinking the same thoughts as me
Couldn’t reach out with my fingers and grab you by the stars and dig my nails into the comets that made you
And tell you we were best friends
To tell you I made to many wishes on all your parts to ever forget
But we built this paper world to fill with paper things
And now our thoughts fill them like bible pages
I’ve shined a light on yours to many times to count
And I just wanna go home.